Your mother

I met your mother today. She hasn't changed anything! And I'm really happy that she hasn't fallen to it again. Honestly, I was so glad of seeing her. I didn't ask about you. I don't know, I thought it was the best. I showed her the pictures from when I was in Tanzania and spoke to her about my next travel to the Philippines. I don't know, I thought it was the best... for me. Because I was convinced that she was going to tell you about me. That's why, when she asked me how I really was, I did my best to lie to her. She noticed it but followed me. Your mother was the best of our relationship. I promised her to call soon and I really want to do it.

Sorry. Yes, I know that I didn't have to, but she would have been so happy. A couple of days before my departure to the Philippines I had the phone on my hand and already searched her number, but something was wrong with my passport and... It would have been so expensive to call from there and, as she still doesn't want to use whatsapp... I can't understand it: she's so good with new technologies but is determined to not install the app. Well, what I'm going to tell you? You're exactly like her. Okay, I didn't think about a letter or a postcard. I agree, that was my fault, but I was supposed to stay there for a few months and it's been now almost four years. It's a beautiful place and my work there has been... has been hard but also rewarding and... I don't know... to be abroad for so long... But I've seen her today again, well, I was going directly to your house. I didn't go up. She was in the park with your nephew. It's a beautiful boy! I think she was fine, yes, maybe more tired, with some grey hair, but her haircut looks so nice. And her trips to spas? What if she is now the one who gets a boyfriend? Can you imagine it? Yes, common, you were the one joking all the time about it and you would be pleased if she falls in love again. Your mother is a wonderful woman that everyone likes. Of course, like anyone else, with her temperament. I suppose that she has already told you that I'm going to settle here in Spain forever. It's crazy! No, I'm not going to marry soon. Aaah, yes, there is someone that... but no, nothing serious. I didn't ask about you and she didn't mention anything about you... I thought it was the best. She said that I've changed. I think it's just an appearance. I mean... yes, things have happened and... I've learnt, I've stumbled over the same stone... I thought about you... a lot... I even thought that I'd seen you once with a german tourist group. Yes, how could it be you? There are so many kilometres. What's more, you would have cancelled the trip just for avoiding germans, even if it was expensive. You would have been locked in your hotel room before discussing with the guide, and she, kindly but losing her patience, would have shown you that it was your problem for joining a group that wasn't the one you were subscribed with, and she would have clarified it to you twice the day before. No, I'm not a soothsayer, you perfectly know that it would have been like that way. I know you... or... I knew you. Yes, I've overcome it... I do now. I don't know, I imagine I'm talking to you... and everything is fine. I hope that you... I hope that everything goes well for you.

You can not say a word now. It's been less than two months. She was coming from the grocery. She was great physically but... I don't know, there was something... she told me it was your anniversary... you should have told me! Okay, we haven't spoken in years but something like that... I would have been happy... I mean, I am happy... It was her eyes, yes, your mother's eyes used to have light... I told her... and she answered that she was in a hurry because she wanted to visit you... and I thought... "it's the perfect moment to go with her and meet your..." What?... No... Are you not married? I thought that... your... anniversary... I should have known before... I should have... And your mother was as kind as always... We went to your house and drank tea. We talked a lot about you and laughed so much. Yes, you were such a funny man... I think I'll to China. No, no, just a trip, not a long stay, I have to come back and bring your mother a souvenir from the Great Wall. She gave me all your maps and the planning. You were the one who had changed.

Chinas was amazing. Today we went to visit you at the graveyard.