The crystal flower

It has always been there, collecting dust. I don´t remember where we bought it but probably at the beginning of our engagement. I was intrigued by its shape. You were by its colours. The fact is that we abandoned it in that furniture soon.

The first time the flower felt down, you were really scared. However, we were together and were just a small scratch on the crystal. We saw each other over the reflection, still delicate even we had forgotten. You decided to bring it into a higher place to avoid risks. I agreed and tried to keep the dust away for a while.

Then I started the pilates classes and you were more involved within the tennis group. That holidays were really hard. I was unfairly fired and you had more trips due to the agency procedures.

It was one year later. I promise you, I didn´t remember where we left it. I stuck the pieces with adhesive tape because couldn´t find the glue. You were in Singapour, and honestly, can´t understand why you didn´t notice. I didn´t tell you because wasn´t important. Just a knick-knack, isn´t it? Was again one piece, fragile and shabby but united. Moreover, was an accident.

But you... I never imagine you were able to do such a stupid thing. You took the flower with your oily hands and through to the floor. Was a clean break but effective. I felt that the petals lost its colour. Maybe weren´t white before... I don´t remember.

I didn´t speak with you for a week and then I saw it, on my desktop. It seemed never been broken. I held the flower searching for the cracks. It was there, almost invisible. You looked me with affection and, together, we found a new place far from our discussions.

We felt over its cold crystal surface many days. Each time, one of us ran for the glue until we stopped because it wasn´t possible to have it together for more than a couple of hours. Never talked about it but both agreed,

You moved out with that young lady that could have been your daughter. I kept it on the drawer with the high-quality linen. We never used it even when you guaranteed that you loved it when bought. Probably you didn´t have a look. It´s awful, the worst linen I´ve ever seen and can´t understand why I was so interested in it.

Sometimes I opened the drawer. Just when had a bad day at work. I was playing it was one perfect piece ready to be shown in the most important gallery of the city. Then, I was hurt on the finger and realized that there were two broken bits. One blood drop slipped through the white petal and ended in the mirror. I was looking away before the blood touched my lips on the reflection.

You came sometimes for it under the pretext of picking up something our daughter didn´t want me to know. I told you that I through it to the bin as soon as you closed the door to have fun with your new girlfriend. You left the house with empty hands. Our daughter never asked you to take anything from my house. I knew, even though left you to go inside and asked me about the crystal flower.

Afterward, I started to work on that gallery with an amazing collection of figurines. Porcelain, plastic, and wood too. At the beginning was difficult to look them afraid to break it as our flower did. Later, I fall in love with one porcelain piece. I bought it knowing that it wasn´t going to match with the living room furniture. No... the fact was that I couldn´t find a perfect place to put it because our flower had been everywhere.

I got rid of both.

It was a long time since another figurine came to my house. I didn´t need it. I mean, there were other kinds of decoration in the living room and seemed really good, even more cleaned than ever.

It took a while to decide. I really liked it but wasn´t sure if I wanted to have it at home. About five months later I finally caressed. Then, our daughter met. She said I was the only one who could decide, but liked it. After a while, I determined to bring it home.

Was resting on the bedroom. Received the first lights of the morning and I stare at it from my side of the bed. Sometimes, by carelessness, I rub it, but I´m working hard to have it far from the floor. It´s so beautiful and I really want to keep an eye on it. We never did with our crystal flower. Never between our relationship.

02-03-2019