29/11/2020

The forest

The forest was not the same or she was wrong with the forest, unlikely considering that she was walking there for the last seven years. It didn´t make sense that she couldn´t find the cabin. In the last week, Minerva couldn´t find it. On Monday and Tuesday could have been reasonable because she got really angry at work. On Wednesday she couldn´t sleep well. There was no specific reason for Thursday, and on Friday she was so annoyed that even if it could have been in front of her, she wouldn´t have released.

On Saturday, she was walking aimlessly pretty sure that the trees around were so similar to the ones around her cabin, and she knew what she was talking about. Despite her rejection of technologies, Minerva was checking her GPS every second. She covered the whole forest without results. It wasn´t a dream. Her cabin had to be there.

On Sunday was cold but Minerva kept searching. The birds sang flying around her. It was funny. The wind shook the leaves which were falling like the snow in the winter. The sound of the water flowing through a close stream seemed to be the voice guiding her steps to nowhere.

Minerva stopped exhausted falling to the ground. She looked at the sky. No, it wasn´t there neither. She observed the clouds drawing the sky and the oaks´ treetops waving smoothly. Her feet were freezing. The sun on her face.

She loved spending the afternoons in her cabin. Sometimes, just enjoying the environment, like she was doing at that moment. She could keep searching the cabin for days, but the forest was not the same anymore.

22/11/2020

From the bunch

 The door is closed.
There are no windows.
You scream.
Like anyone else.

You beat until your fists are bleeding.
You fall down and get up.
Like anyone else.

You try again.
Alone
and glad.
You don´t know
what you couldn´t have done
staying with others.
You kneel down,
assume your drama
and cry.
Like anyone else.

You think it´s all overcome,
it hurts
but won´t do soon.
You relax in the silence.
You watch the world go by.
You open your eyes
and scream again.
You break apart.
More than ever.
More than before.
Like anyone else.

You abandon.

You save yourself.
Or they save you.

And there outside
you check your body.
You can´t find any scars
but think you have learned.
They say it.

You hold on to your speech.
You stand for it.
You beat it up.
Your skin is scratched
with each stride.
You are dragged.
Just a bit.
Like anyone else.

You find your room.
You close the door.
They put the chains.
And you let them
playing with you.
Like anyone else.

And you believe there must be hope.
you want to fight and get it.
And you close your eyes.
The door is also closed.
There are no windows.
You scream.
Like anyone else.

08/11/2020

The coffee shop

It was opened just a couple of days ago. Over the six years that she had been living in the neighbourhood, she had seen hundreds of businesses borning and dying, but it was the first time of a coffee shop. It really seemed a good option and had the advantage of no competence around several kilometers. But it was weird: no neighbour knew the owners, no one had seen trucks delivering supplies, neither workers changing what it was right previously a hairdresser.

And it wasn´t just about the neighbours, common walkers gossiping the street, not realizing about it, the problem was that she, living over the business and having the window of her bedroom looking at the entrance of it, hadn´t also seen any human life. No one could call her obsessed because she was used to observing the people with whom she was sharing the territory, as vocational training. She hated when people tried to describe her as a detective when that was a big word for her light aspirations to become senior gossip as soon as she could retire. The case was that in this specific situation, she might have gone further as she was spending the nights awake convinced that, at the moment that she was blinking, thousands of people were entering the business and having an amazing, and silent, party.

Of course, she had already thought about a second entrance. No, not at her neighbour´s houses, she also went inside, checking every centimeter of walls and floors, and even acting as a chief police officer (working for a while as her career was, not her position) using the very best interrogation techniques as no one had ever seen at her police station. Was hoping no one there ever knew about it or she would lose her valuable privileges as persistent lazy. Therefore, the alternative entrance must have been in the underground. Of course, she had already gone down, an inspirational route, and she said that seriously, it was a revealing experience. But in terms of the door... there were some mysterious places, walls that may have sounded hollow, and maybe it wasn´t even a decent house for a well-nourished rats family, that was all.

So she was in the mood of trying and go inside, she could just a too well-prepared coffee and lose her positive attitude of having the day off, but that was a matter of time, any of her neighbours were about to achieve the same as soon as they met because she wasn´t wearing the uniform (and if she had it on, it was her who ignore its meaning).

No welcome poster, nor price list were garnishing the main window, which was coloured grey as it could have been a thick dirt layer: sticky dust on the inside and muddy rain on the outside. But she perfectly knew that it wasn´t that, because she was used to the dust and mud effect over the windows since her mother stopped visiting her and she, as a rebel decision, decided to not cleaning any of them (apart, obviously, from the one on her bedroom, for already mentioned reasons).

It didn´t smell anything. Not freshly brewed coffee, nor that cheap air freshener that you buy for your house, and when you open it, you understand why, apart from having the low price, has been reduced too.

The reform was clear. She didn´t let anyone cut her mop of hair but always had time to have a look at those gossip magazines which no one in the area is interested in buy all of them perfectly knew, just to not been called ignorant. The walls had been covered with grey tiles, nothing compared to the previous flowered paper. Nor a miserable picture. It had two sad atypical fluorescent tubes that weren´t even flickering. Close to the window, there was a table, the only one in the room, with two white chairs and a coffee machine. The rest of the room was empty, just two doors at the back which could have been a toilet and the store, thinking logically, but she was convinced that there should have been a better use for it considering the style of the business. She was about crying and so excited to meet such extraordinary decorators.

She wanted her coffee and, as couldn´t see any cup, neither a miserable plastic glass nor a rusty plate, accepted that they were giving her the permission to drink directly from the tube. She couldn´t understand why was waiting so long to enter when it was an incredible place.

All of a sudden, the door closed wildly and the lights went off. It sounded a sweet song from the speakers that she was sure weren´t there but still inside. Her eyes got used to the dark and a wind flow shook her hair untangling it as even her father couldn´t do since she was seven years old. The excitement was driving her veins in a way that not even felt when she called her boss asking for a day off because an ant went through her wardrobe and she had a terrible night.

Across the window, she saw some quick crimes planed better than those screenplays from the best fast-paced action Hollywood film, and of course, of whom she wasn´t used to because of her tendency to pay more attention to the birds that could crap over her cap than the actual event, especially when the criminal (or the killer to be call) was telling her to do so. And she just chilled there.

Sticky hands were hooking her ankles while some patrol cars were arriving, certainly clueless without her support but maybe could save the day. She wanted to sit on a chair to enjoy the show as if she were watching that grossing American film, but the fingers that were holding her lower limbs impeded it. She wouldn´t mind sitting on the floor, after all, going to the cinema was something from a previous life, but the sticky hands didn´t even want that. She was okay like that. To be honest, she had enough with those afternoons when her ass was stuck on a bench each time a brainless fan wanted to kiss her after a clumsy invitation to go for a walk on a supposed to be romantic sunset and it was finally a long night without even shooting stars.

She felt how claws were scratching her skin under her jumper and realized that she should have also cut her nails. It was great feeling those bloody smelling drops falling from the roof to her hair. She had been a long time thinking about the option of dyeing it but was afraid of been called stylish, and, look at that, they had decided for her.

Finally, the owner appeared. She was starting to feel disappointed with such a long wait. It was a dark skeletal shadow. She couldn´t stop laughing when saw the hood when it was obvious that it was just raining over her, but was true that it was completing the serial killer style, and that she was about to clap when it showed her a finger of the right hand doing a deathly symbol.

She didn´t move even when a green smoke was covering the room making it hard to breathe. The shadow smiled nervously without been able to hide its surprise because of the fortitude of its fifth victim of the day. But it didn´t know that the victim, who seemed a terrible policewoman, was an unbeatable monster hunter that was about to start her work hours and, to be honest, was already winning.